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Feeling: Another problem I'm having is that I am sleeping more; this morning I wanted to get up when I first woke up (10:00 AM) because I had things I needed to do (look at the job ads and websites, answer some email, upload Xander's website for him, put him in some search engines, take my grandmother her birthday gift, what have you). I ended up getting up around 12:30 AM, which meant that I was running way behind all morning. I never got to see my grandmother, I am writing this hurriedly, and I was trying to do so many things with Gillian while I was uploading Xander's site that she crashed, and I lost the email with the password to his site, so it's in a halfway-uploaded state. Sucks to be me! Yes...:
I am rushing around with a bazillion things to do and not enough time to do them all. Eating fast food or some sort of instant meat-based crap at every meal, and eating them at the computer to double up on things to do or at the sink to minimize mess. I am doing everything as I catch some time, because I'm not as efficient as I was before, trying to schedule around this block of "dead time" in my day where I've gone to work.
Even though this sounds like I'm not thrilled with things, I'm actually doing okay. I mean, let's be serious - this is not where I wanted to go back to. I actually wanted an office again, with my own computer(s), run (or outright command) of the network, a decent internet connection that I could do with as I pleased. However, here I am right now. You pays your money and you takes your chances, and this is where I'm at.
For now it's okay. I am confident in what I'm doing. I wasn't, but that's because I didn't understand this program. Slowly, surely, it's sinking in. Most of the time I can just do whatever I think is best and it works out, anyway.
Crafty said that I am doing so better compared to when she met me, and she's proud of how I am doing. What's strange is that I don't have a "discontinuity of consciousness," where I realize that I have changed so much. That gives me a little pause, because I was a nervous wreck when I first met her. Strangeness abounds.
One of the salesmen even came into "the pit" today and wanted to talk to me because he said that he had gotten a compliment on how I managed to help one of his clients and get their problems resolved once and for all when no one else could help. The head techs said that was pretty wild for somebody on their first day. Very cool.
I hung out a little after work to help out this guy I started with with a problem so that the senior tech over him could leave, and then talked to a couple of the other people who'd been there a while; as I said before, it's a brotherhood of geeks, and I fit right in. I might like this after all. [smile]
So things are slowly settling back into normal fashion. I am getting everything taken care of; I got Xander's site done, finished, proofed, and uploaded, and tonight I submitted it to a bunch of search engines. I have been checking various job resources every day, and now that I'm in the swing I can quickly check the new items and leave it at that.
I may actually return to having some free time soon. I mean, here I am, entering this entry now, and I am really considering turning to working on my personal site soon.
The big thing that I'm looking at is what sort of skills I need to move further into the market. I mean, sure, I'm working a technical job now, so that's a foot in, at least, but I need to move up, soon, because I'm being paid a fairly sorry sum, I feel (about half of what I was making before, at my last job, but it beats the Hell out of nothing).
So I keep looking at the web developer ads, and what they want.
The trick is actually finding time to do all this, so I am trying to find a space to fit it in. This is my challenge, should I decide to accept it, and throw the tape recorder in a tub of water because it looks like the space around Gillian has had a bomb go off already.
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